Link Love : December

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RSA Shorts - The Power of Empathy, Dr. Brene Brown via The RSA 

Link Love is a monthly series featuring my favorite links and bits around the interwebs.

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Persimmon Crepes via Happy Yolks
A perfect rant about authenticity... "At the end of the day, the pandemic use of the word authentic underscores how massively disconnected we are, as individuals, to what it means to be fully ourselves. Fully and/or comfortably. We have to talk about being authentic all the time to convince ourselves that we actually are. And where does that come from? Ultimately that’s what we’re left to assess. Why is everyone trying so hard? WE DON’T NEED TO TRY SO HARD! We just need to BE our own weird selves. That’s authentic."

How to Write Your First Book via Buzzfeed
"Here, 21 successful writers share the stories of their first published books, complete with many false starts, debacles with agents and publishers, and advice they’d travel through time to give their younger selves." A lengthy, thorough, interesting post from... Buzzfeed? Color me shocked! 

Amy Poehler is one busy lady. But she'll still make time for you. via PAPERMAG
I love this woman so much, and this interview just makes me smile... though I admit I legit started crying when she alluded to the fact that this season could be the end of Parks & Rec.

25 Questions to Ask Yourself Before the End of the Year by Ashley Wilhite via Mind Body Green
Since I opted out of taking Stratejoy's Holiday Council this year, I thought this list from Ashley of Your Super Awesome Life was a good starting point for some self-reflection. 

How to brand yourself as a multipotentialite in a way that makes sense to conventional employers via Puttylike
This post (and the comments section) is a good read for people like me who are interested in a wide array of subjects and/or who have a diverse employment history... "How do we brand ourselves as multipotentialites in a non-multi world? How do we package our round holes in square pegs?"

A super short post with a brilliant message. 

You need to go after the things you want by Ryan O'Connell via Thought Catalog 
"WE WEREN’T BUILT TO BE CALM, COOL, AND COLLECTED. If we were, it wouldn’t feel so fucking exhausting all the time. It would, you know, come naturally to us. You know what comes naturally to human beings though? Being open, being messy, being raw, being unfiltered, having lots of feelings." 

Christmas, Sickness, and a Note to My Future Self.

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Tis the season to be jolly... and sick as a dog.

For the second year in a row, I’ve arrived on Christmas day bearing gifts in one hand and wadded up tissues and empty cough drop wrappers in the other. When my sore throat and mildly runny nose evolved into a deep, rattling cough a few days ago, I was struck with a sense of deja vu about the whole situation. Sure enough, I checked my journal and an old blog post and read an almost verbatim retelling of my current status.

I wanted to brush it off as pure coincidence, or at least just that time of year when germs are being passed from person to person like plates of Christmas cookies. But a voice inside me thought otherwise. “Your body cannot cope with the stress you put it through during this time of the year,” it said. “Why haven’t you learned the lesson to be kinder to yourself?”

I’ve long been aware of my perfectionistic tendencies and how they sometimes take run of my life, but when Christmas rolls around, I’ve blindly accepted it as a part of the seasonal routine. Of course I want to find the perfect gifts for the 25+ people on my Christmas list. Of course I want to give generously to everyone and take part in every Secret Santa exchange to which I’m invited. Of course I want to wrap my gifts in a way that would make Martha Stewart proud. Of course I will go to every family gathering and see everyone I can on my mom’s side, my step-dad’s side, and my husband’s side. Of course I will bring a potluck dish that appeals to a variety of dietary concerns and is also delicious. Of course I will be primped and primed and coiffed for holiday photos.

Behind every “of course” that I try to project outward in the name of holiday cheer is a hefty dose manic energy fueled by what I interpret as other’s expectations of me. I want to be thought of as creative and thoughtful and a “good” daughter/sister/cousin/friend, and the way to do that at Christmas is through my presence (no matter how spread thin I feel) or my presents (no matter how much pressure, stress, and money the gift-buying or gift-making process involves). Rather than taking a step back and adopting a realistic, balanced, and more wholesome view of the holidays that would be more in line with my values, I just put my head down and bulldozed straight into December, giving into the perfectionistic demands and an idealized vision of the holiday season. It’s easier to plow through than to try and change things. It’s no wonder I end up collapsing by the end of it all.

As I sit here post crash-and-burn (though not yet fully recovered), it’s hard for me to understand how I was so blind to what I’ve been doing to myself over the past few Christmases, especially this year. My stress level really was so out of control I was dreaming about to-do lists and gift wrapping themes. At one point, I ended up with three surplus gifts for one person because I couldn’t stop buying something “better” for her. I often moan about how we’re missing the point of the season by being so materialistic, and yet I failed to see how I’m playing into this by equating my value as a daughter/sister/cousin/friend with what I give someone as a gift.

Most years I come away from the holidays threatening to escape to a snowy village in Germany next Christmas instead of celebrating with family. I won’t deny that I still fantasize about that, but I know running away won’t solve my problems, especially because I carry most of them within me.

When I come back to read this post next December 1, I want my future self to remember to be kind to herself, first and foremost. And from that kindness, remember that gifts are simply a holiday tradition (and a fairly unimportant one in the grand scheme of things), and not some secret expression of worthiness. Whether you choose to hand-make or buy, and whether those gifts cost $5 or $50, they are simply a way to say, “I’m thinking about you this holiday.” Remember that presence is always worth more than presents, but even that has a limited supply-- and it’s okay to say “no” when that supply runs low. 

With a little bit of grace towards myself, I’m hoping that future Christmases won’t leave me so depleted that I’m sick in bed until after New Year’s. Someday, I’d like to look forward to Christmas as a simple, joyous, family-focused time instead of one that needs to be managed, tolerated, and endured.

But for now, please pass the tissues and NyQuil.

Best of 2013: A Year in Review.

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In 2011 and 2012, I created a “Year in Review” infographic newsletter to fill in my family on the happenings in Mark’s and my life (pictured above). These letters were such a fun project for me, as I love reflecting on good times and laying it all out. Side note: I had intended to blog the cards both years, but in the time I spent waiting for my family to get the cards in the mail before posting photos, I promptly forgot that I’d wanted to blog them at all. You’d think I’d learn to schedule posts in advance... but NOPE.

This year, however, “good times” have been on short supply. Even in a so-called normal year, it would have been hard to top 2012’s European travels and living in Ireland, but 2013 was more sadness and struggle than anything else.  My family dealt with three deaths, my brother was hit by a truck on his motorcycle (he’s now post-surgery and recovering), I had a fallout with an immediate family member that ended with us cutting contact for the present time, my cat was diagnosed with the early stages of liver disease requiring constant nursing and syringe-feeding, plus more than a handful of other smaller challenges. Those kinds of things don’t really make for good Christmas newsletter content, no? At least not one that doesn't make people depressed or require a two-drink minimum to read.

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I think it’s still important for me to dig down and look for the little bits of good in the past year, even if I don’t think I need to share with my family the mundanities like my love for Trader Joe’s Dark Chocolate Triple Ginger Cookies and the joy of re-reading Harry Potter for the first time since the late '90s. But my blog has always been about cherishing the small moments, so I felt like it is a natural place for me to find the joy, and maybe do a little bit of humblebragging, if I can muster it :)

Without further ado, these are my Best Bits and Favorite Things from 2013:

1. Organizing the shit out of my house.
Lame but true. You guys can't imagine the joy I get from taking something disorganized and figuring out a system to make it work. This year, we got rid of a lot of stuff we didn’t need anymore, and then I organized everything left over, since I was feeling constantly annoyed at the messy cabinets and closets. It was as simple as getting some trays, dividers, and storage boxes, but it has made my life so much easier now that everything has its own place. My personal favorite is the magazine file that I’ve repurposed as a hairdryer/hair straighter/hairbrush holder that slides right under my bathroom sink for storage (kind of like this).

2. Papa’s memorial service with my family.
It's probably strange to put a memorial service on a "best bits" list, but it ended up being a really good day. When my grandpa died on my birthday in January, I wasn't really sure how to process my intense feelings of grief nor how to give myself some closure, which was only compounded by the fact that he opted not to have a funeral. In September, my family decided to hold a family-only memorial for my grandpa in the Northwoods, a place he loved. We dressed up in flannel shirts, fleece jackets, and trucker hats and spent the afternoon sharing stories of Papa-- fishing adventures, numerous stories of accidents and injuries, his personal dictionary of made-up words, his stubbornness (which runs in the family), and other hilarious memories. I felt more full of laughter and love than tears after that point, which is more than I could have asked for from the day. It was really great to have everyone from my family in one place for a weekend (minus one cousin who is away at college), and it'll be one of those family memories that I'll always cherish.

3. Visiting the Oregon coast by myself and spending lots of time at Powell’s.
I went out to Oregon for the Story Excavation retreat, and while the retreat didn’t turn out quite the way I’d hoped, I had a really nice time on my own in the days before and after the retreat. I rented a car by myself for the very first time (a tiny little Fiat 500), and explored Portland and the Oregon coastal towns for two days. One of the highlights was obviously the many hours I spent in Powell's bookstore. For souvenirs, I bought myself a book of poetry and a "Le Petit Prince" t-shirt from Out of Print Clothing. Post-retreat, after four days of quick camp showers with bad water pressure, I had THE BEST shower of my life in a hotel room near the airport, as well as the most wonderful night's sleep in probably six months. It was a tiny little taste of what a solo-vacation would be like (which I've never done before), and I'm dreaming about taking a trip on my own at some point in the future (my fantasy is some sort of resort spa, if only they weren't so bloody expensive).

4. Meeting two internet friends and turning them into real life friends. 
Hi, Jill! Hi, Renee! *Waves* Over the summer, I got to meet two lovely ladies I'd gotten to know through blogging and Twitter. And I'm lucky enough to have one of them as a next door neighbor! I only wish Jill lived closer too because I had such a great time over brunch in Chicago and then showing her around Oak Park when she came in from Minneapolis for a visit. I'm sure we'd have lots of fun thrifting together if we lived closer. Internet to IRL pals are wonderful.

5. Getting to spend a few days with my adorable nephews.
In May, Mark and I took a roadtrip between Arizona, where Mark's sister lives, and Southern California, to see Mark's dad. Phoenix has exactly zero appeal to me aside from my sister-in-law and her family, but I will gladly put up with Arizona for a visit to spend time with them. Our nephews, who are currently 4 and 6 years old, are such adorable, wonderful boys. We're making plans to take a yearly trip out there each March to make sure we get to spend time with them while they're young.

6. Reading a ton of books.
I've talked about this a lot already-- I mentioned achieving my reading goal already, and I wrote about my favorite books of the year here. When I was bogged down with shitty circumstances, it was a wonderful outlet to bury myself in someone else's world. 

7. Fun events:
Attending a Zoe Keating concert, seeing Susan Cain give a talk, seeing Michael Pollan speak, going to a Blackhawks game on Mark’s birthday, attending a letterpress workshop, seeing The Book of Mormon, taking a breakfast pastry class, and having a summer dinner party at our friend's condo downtown. Because I'd sort of labeled 2013 as "generally horrible" in my mind, I'd honestly forgot about most of these smaller fun events until I looked back at my Instagram.

8. Finally getting our condo completely painted in colors we won’t regret in a year.
Between moving into our condo in 2008 and the start of this year, we'd painted our living room/kitchen four times. Granted, one of those times was because we were dumdums and bought semi-gloss paint by accident, thus requiring a re-paint in the correct finish. Nonetheless, I am clearly indecisive when it comes to paint colors. This year, we left the living room alone since we love the color (Behr Turtle Dove, a light gray-ish sage green) and tackled the bedroom (with Benjamin Moore Revere Pewter) and office (Benjamin Moore Iceberg). Now the whole condo is a lovely range of light green, blue, and greige, and I couldn't be happier. FINALLY.

9. Cutting my own hair (successfully).
Despite a traumatic DIY bangs-cutting incident in 8th grade, I somehow got it in my head that it'd be a good idea to try and cut my own very long hair. Actually, it'd be more truthful to say that I was too lazy-- and cheap-- to go to the salon (I was also sort of embarrassed that it'd been more than 600 days since my last hair cut, for shame). So I turned to the source of all DIY knowledge-- YouTube! I watched a dozen videos on how to cut long hair in layers, and after no one came to confiscate all the scissors from my house despite my pleas on Twitter, I did it! I took about 3.5-4" off. It took a super long time since I was trying to be so careful, but honestly, it was really easy. When I get a medium-to-long haircut at the salon, I never feel like I come away looking any different, so I'm pleased at having saved $70... and I'll probably do it again. (For anyone curious, I used this video the most because her texture and thickness seemed most similar to mine, and she's a hair stylist by day, so I guess I trusted her technique more. But there's a ton of video tutorials out there.)

10. Becoming 100% student loan free. 
Thanks to a giant tax return after spending most of 2012 working in Ireland, Mark was able to submit one lump payment to finish off his student loans. I paid off my loans back in July of 2010, so our education is officially 100% behind us... at least until I entertain the idea of going back to school again (a thought that often lies in the back of my mind).

11. Buying a Prius.
We traded our student loan payment for a car payment and got a pretty Prius in October, as I mentioned in my Coffee Date post. She's beautiful!

12. Re-assessing my creative goals.
After closing my Etsy shop and scaling back on freelance graphic design work, I've had an abundance of extra time to ask, "What do I really want to pursue and accomplish?" and I can see some changes will be occurring in the new year. I can go into more detail in a future blog post.

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Even though 2013 isn't quite over yet, I'm pretty excited to look forward to 2014, a year that will hopefully be happier, healthier, and a little more joyous than this one. Onward ho!


Note: While Year in Review type cards are freakin' ALL OVER Pinterest these days (or Minted, for any of you non-DIY types) I do have to give a head-nod to designers Amanda Jane Jones and Aprile Elcich for being my original inspirations for the idea and several of the elements I ended up including on our own cards.

Best of 2013: In Books.

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So far this year, I've completed 36 books and have surpassed my Goodreads goal of 30 books. I am hoping to round out the year by finishing four more, but I feel pretty safe in declaring my favorite reads from the past year.

My first favorite book was Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. It is a contemporary fiction book about a woman in England who accepts a job as a caretaker for a quadriplegic man, and the story follows the development of their work and personal relationship. It's hard to say any more without giving the story away, but I thought it was both lovely and tragic, heart-wrenching and life-affirming. If you enjoy Jodi Piccoult books, I highly suggest you give this book a read. I cannot promise it won't make you cry though! I am a robot made of stone when reading some books-- The Fault in Our Stars made me shed nary a tear, for example-- but Me Before You hit me right in the ventricles.

My second favorite is less of a book and more of an author-- Cheryl Strayed. I read both Wild and Tiny Beautiful Things this year, and I won't be forgetting either book anytime soon. Wild is Strayed's memoir from her time hiking the Pacific Crest Trail during a time in her life when she'd experienced quite a bit of tragedy and loss. I loved the balance between Strayed's personal story and the physical journey she was on. I'm already prone to wanderlust, and this book definitely made me want to get out in nature in the worst way-- even with the mention of her toenails falling off.

Strayed's other book, Tiny Beautiful Things, is a collection of questions and answers from her formerly anonymous advice column, Dear Sugar, for the website The Rumpus. This book demonstrates Strayed's amazing talent for getting right to the heart of the matter. People have written to Sugar who are in the midst of difficult and heart-wrenching situations, and Strayed's responses draw heavily upon her own life experiences. Her approach is less advice and more life lessons, and I came away from many of the essays feeling immense gratitude and awe at the beauty and tragedy of the human experience. I underlined the hell out of my book, and I walked away from it wanting to be a better, more kinder person. READ IT READ IT READ IT.

Other notable reads:
- A Million Miles in a Thousand Years: How I Learned to Live a Better Story by Donald Miller
- A Homemade Life: Stories and Recipes from My Kitchen Table by Molly Wizenberg
- It Chooses You by Miranda July

A few "misses"-- overhyped and/or poorly written, in my opinion:
- Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
- Allegiant by Veronica Roth
- Making Your Creative Mark by Eric Maisel

PS - I've been attempting to play with watercolors a little bit more to figure out how they work, so I created the two book cover images above during my practice time. It was super fun and I'm really enjoying the "daintiness" of watercolors compared to the big, messy acrylic paintings I've done in the past. It might be something I want to continue to play with next year!

Coffee Chat // December 10, 2013

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Coffee Chat
I've seen this kind of series pop up on various blogs and vlogs in the past, and I adore the concept. Since I'd love to gather us all together for a chat over coffee but I'm still working on inventing that teleporter and my apparition skills are sorely lacking, we'll have to settle for the occasional Coffee Date post. I hope you'll join me!

Instead of just rambling about the random things going on in my world, I thought I'd throw out a few questions for you. Play along in the comments below if you'd like!

1. What's your favorite holiday memory from childhood? 
2. When was the last time you did something special or exciting? 
3. Have you seen any good movies lately? 
4. How do you avoid getting too stressed out during the holiday season? Please help. I'm desperate.
5. What was the last impulse purchase you made? 

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When I was about eight years old, my family started holding a Progressive Dinner, which was one December night where we'd travel between my aunts' and grandparent's houses for appetizers, dinner and dessert. I remember thinking it was such a fun idea, and I loved getting to see the Christmas tree and decorations at each of my relatives' houses. We'd get to stay up later than normal, and if we were lucky on the drive home, my stepdad would take a short detour and go past the "fancy houses," which were always my favorite to see all lit up with Christmas lights. I don't remember us keeping this tradition for too many years, as I think it got to be too much work and travel time for the various families, but I loved it while it lasted.

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Life hasn't been particularly exciting this year, but we did recently buy a new car in October-- a bright blue Prius named Dory, after the fish from Finding Nemo. She's gorgeous! It's basically our first "grown up" car purchase. We went from a 1999 Mercury Sable, a hand-me-down from my step-grandma, which felt like driving a tank around our tiny urban neighborhood and was starting to cost us far too much in repairs. I'm so happy to have a smaller and more modern car now!

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I always tend to watch more movies in the winter. Mark and I often go to mid-day matinees at our local theater, and we saw The Book Thief two weekends ago and Catching Fire the week before that. Catching Fire was SO GOOD, you guys! This is my review, summed up perfectly in one GIF:


The Book Thief is one of Mark's favorite books, and I thought the book was quite good as well, so our expectations were pretty high for the movie adaptation. I thought it was a beautifully filmed movie, and the story still made an impression, but it is nowhere near as good as the book.

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Stress during the holidays is always a problem for me. We have about 20 people to buy gifts for every year (yay divorced families!), and the logistics of spending time with each family-- plus friends and work parties-- makes me threaten to run off to Germany for Christmas EVERY YEAR. This year, I took some pressure off myself by deciding not to send out holiday cards. I feel like I should feel guilty about this, but I don't. At least not until someone points out that I didn't send out cards. And I'll give them the side-eye for it.

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I admire the people who are able to refrain from buying themselves anything during December; I do not have that kind of self-restraint. I don't do a lot of shopping or internet browsing during the year, so when I start Christmas shopping for family, I always end up finding stuff for myself too. That has been the case this year since I have a few ladies to buy for for Secret Santa exchanges and have been spending time on sites like Sephora and BaubleBar. Black Friday and Cyber Monday online deals didn't help matters either. Most recently I ended up buying myself this rose gold pave bracelet from BaubleBar when I had a discount code. Oops!

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Your turn! Feel free to answer any or all the questions, I'd love to hear from you.

My Christmas Wishlist

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2013-Christmas Wishlist

After a mini panic attack due to the fact that Christmas is only 21 days away (and even less for the few holiday gatherings I'm attending that are occurring before the 25th), I spent much of my free time yesterday trying get a jump on my holiday shopping. Between placing orders at a few local stores and taking advantage of a some remaining Cyber Monday deals, I was able to check off about 60% of the people on my shopping list, and I've got a good solid plan for the other 40%. Phew, crisis averted.

While I was browsing online, I couldn't help but gather my own fantasy wish list. My needs are few and far between (as always), but I'm finding myself lusting after more than a handful of beautiful and luxurious goods, the kinds of things I rarely treat myself to. So I thought a bit of daydreaming was in order. Santa, take note ; )

And if you don't care about what I'm personally wishing for this Christmas, just consider this a Gift Guide for the Earthy-Yet-Stylish, Simplicity-Loving Semi-Hippie.

Column 1: Rustic Kitchen Apron in Blue Pinstripe Ticking ($45) from meyertextileco on Etsy {shop is currently closed/sold out for the holidays, boo!}  // The Vintage Tote Bag ($175) from Whipping Post // Milk Glass Mixing Bowl Set in Jade ($88) from Terrain // Frye Veronica Shortie boots in Burnished Slate ($269) from Zappo's

Column 2: Metal Accordion Side Table in Bronze ($78) from Urban Outfitters // Heather Hawkins Cabochon Stud Earrings ($88) from Shop Bop {though the reviews are disappointing, as the earrings seem to differ from the photo in person, bummer!} // Brahms Mount Cotton Herringbone Throw in Indigo ($236) from Orange & Pear // It's All Good cookbook ($21.99) by Gwenyth Paltrow

Column 3: 12 Vegan Soap Samples ($22) from prunellasoap on Etsy // Long Bar Necklace ($99) from Mar La Studio // Glass Terrarium ($90) from boxwoodtree on Etsy // Basic Essential Oil Sampler ($51.60) or Best of the Best essential oil set ($120.60) from PlantLife {thank you for the recommendation, Analiese!}

A few extra items that were too nerdy to picture: Bookstore and Dumbledore's Office scented soy candles ($14 each) from FrostBeard on Etsy // A Practical Guide to Spells and Wizardry art print ($45) by NateDuval on Etsy

And the intangibles: Laughter over a wholesome, delicious holiday meal // To sit in front of a crackling fire // Chatting over a cup of tea with my loved ones // A chance to get out for a snowy photo walk // My annual viewing and reciting the entire script of Home Alone // The feeling of warmth in my chest after a glass of mulled wine // To sit in stillness when possible and consciously take steps to avoid a stressful season.

What's #1 on your holiday wishlist? If I could have anything, I'd probably go for those Frye boots. *Swoon.*